ups and downs,inside out.

magic

2007-10-26T21:34:00.000-07:00

remember that small folder u guys gave me on our last outing? i think its magical.
on days when i feel small and insignificant, on days when i feel down..all i really need to do is open that book and i feel so loved again. :( turns to :) in an instant! magic...

stupidity

2007-10-23T09:34:00.000-07:00

i drove pass a friggin REDLIGHT today. i was like _______________________ (that) close to crashing another car! dangg tatya! i need to stop blasting the music and pay attention. for a moment after it happened,i turned off the radio and just checking for police cars and anticipating for a sirene sound.Thank god, there was none! and after that, all the way home i was stunned, i did not even move a muscle or say anything, I was just shock and was praying incessantly inside.

and I blame it all on the weather. WINNDDD WINDD GO AWAYY..SHOO I HATE YOU!

on a lighter note, weekend was crazyy fun. i was thinking of writing it in detail but im too lazy now. so in short. fri was girl days out with jin the wholee day, sat was at home watching so you think you can dance back to back! and universal studio city walk at night. sun was little tokyo, farmer's market and thenn the ultimate boyslikegirls concert. sleepover at aris's thenn skipped school the next day. (my first time okay!)

busy weekends = unwashed laundry and homeworks piling up. so yeah i nd to get back on school mode!

a week to A's? its fast huh? i hope everyone will do well.dont stress urself too much.its useless..just sit down and make ur last revision just like any other revision.u all will do well i know. i have smart smart friends!*

school's been err weird.today was one of those days, i realised that friends i have is priceless. i hate superficial ppl,problems oh problems. and once again i dont really know, who's my friends, who's not, who's using me,who's faking it,who i can trust? it's hard sometimes.

i miss youu guys :(

DRIVINNGG me crazy

2007-10-08T19:07:00.000-07:00

i drove to school today ALONE for the first time. :) omg! it was quite allright for a first timer i think. in the morning, i was so scared i drove slow (40mph okayy..but in california ppl are crazy they drive minimum 50 mph). i could saw cars passed me by. i bet they are damn annoyed..but who cares? i dont want to die in my first attempt to drive alone.

God..driving is nerve-wrecking. i need to be alert all the time.. green lights,car behind,car beside,not too slow,not too fast..jeez i really wish im a princess and have a driver driving me everywhere while i sit behind sleeping or daydreamin. but noo im not a princess! :( haha

i got one english essay due and stupid history test that i hateee so much cause there is just too much thing to read and to memorise! dangg x( on a lighter note, its HEROES tonight. hot hot peterr! i love monday nights!

amigos por siempre

2007-10-05T19:27:00.000-07:00

candid i love
jin and rich
and lastly,my wonderwall.

i wanted to upload more but stupid blogger refused to let me. next time :D

click on pictures for bigger version.

learning to let go

2007-10-05T18:33:00.000-07:00

today i realised that all along, i tend to live in the past.
when i was in singapore, i was hurting, i was angry, and constantly wondering why am i here? i constantly thinking about what i left behind and how wonderful would it be if i could go back home.

and again, for the first month here, i felt the same way.i constantly thinking how stupid was i to not push myself hard enough to just damn study and go trough the A level with them.In singapore i had my comfort zone. my friends that knows me so well.i knew i could choose not say a word with them if i didn't feel like talking, and still feel comfortable. i could say anything that passed through my brain no matter how stupid it was or be ridiculous all i want and i know they'll still love me. i like making new friends,i really do.but the akwardness,the "oh-i-need-to-talk-about-something-interesting" feeling,and the silent akwardness is just killing me and i want my friends back.

just few days ago,i realised that i need to stop this or i'll never be happy.i need to push my past behind. focus on what i have around me. stop hurting.stop judging. stop blaming. stop asking why?

and i realised that things are better this way, everything is moving on nicely,not perfect but nice enough. i started to appreciate those stood by and i do have good friends around me. friends that i love and friends that i know i'll love. all i need to do is just start appreciating.

i have FAITH. faith that everything will just fall into places- to the right places. and suddenly i feel that i remember how it is like to be happy again

the 78398237 attempts to blog

2007-10-05T18:12:00.000-07:00

i spent an hour trying to figure out livejournal and i gave up. i like how they have the lj-cut thingoo but so complicated! i'll stick with this simple one.

i dont like having a blog. cause normally, everytime i read back my past postings i would be like "why the hell do i wrote that?" and i hate opening up, baring my hearts out to people.i felt insecure.

but this is the only way to keep my friends up-to-date about me and not forget me. haha so this is for you my friends.